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| Counting the planes that passes by this piece of the sky |
DISCONNECT.
I'm not sure if I already mentioned one of my favourite things to do when I was younger - watching the night sky through the window.
I was supposed to have a one week mandatory leave from office this month. I don't have any plans of taking the ML (Mandatory Leave) this month but due to some uncertainties in our work project I was asked to take the ML. So I immediately surfed the net about workshops and short courses/classes that I can take just to make the week productive and nourishing as well. I thought of attending a short story writing and calligraphy class. It is one of my dreams to be part of somebody else's shelf and I thought attending a short story-writing class is one way to achieve that dream. I thought of learning calligraphy because I heard this skill can make you earn good amount of money. Doing what you like and earning isn't a bad idea after all.
So everything is in place.
Short Story Writing Class
Calligraphy Class
Driving Lessons
Understanding Stock Market
I was excited to do all these. I am excited to take my mandatory leave.
But due to another uncertainties (yes, again), I was asked to retract my mandatory leave. I perfectly understand the demands of the project. So with a heavy heart, I said goodbye to these plans. Sigh.
While feeling the disappointment of these kinds of lemons life has given me, I chose to disconnect.
I just laid down with my back flat on the floor and looked at the piece of the gloomy sky. I put my phone and my laptop away. Did not care about the messages coming in. I just wanted to stay there. Counting the planes that passes by that piece of sky.
Suddenly all the things feels familiar.
I'm not disappointed anymore. I just loved being there alone in silence, staring out the glass door. Nakahiga lang ako dun maghapon and I feel very much okay. I can actually do that the whole day.
I was expecting that I'll have a hard time going to work the following Monday because I'm supposed to be doing something else. That's me. If some things did not go according to my plan I really have a hard time going back on track. I can say I'm still functional but I am pissed that easy. But surprisingly I'm not. I can actually joke about the 'mailap' na bakasyon.
So I've learned to disconnect, to just clear your thoughts. At the end of the day, it will be the decisions that we are making that actually bombarded us that we should keep on going even sometimes we just need to stop. Labo ba? hahaha
Anyways, July should have been the month I took a vacation and learnt something that would have let me have my first step towards one of my dreams. But July actually have forced me one way or another to pause for a while and breathe.
Sure sooner or later, the project will be demanding and it may get us all out of our wits. I may have to ask myself to disconnect for a while.
Why don't we just stop and smell the flowers? :)
