Happy Mothers Day ulit Nay.
I just want to thank you for being so wonderful.
Million thanks was not enough...
You deserve far more than that...
Thank you.
Thank you for being there everytime we needed you...
Thank you for being our number 1 fan...
Thank you for never getting tired praparing for breakfast, lunch, dinner and even snacks.
You made it you're daily routine.
Thank you for making us full.
Thank you for making us feel so special.
Thank you for making us feel protected... safe...
Thank you for making us feel needed... wanted...
Thank you for making us feel loved.
Thanks to God for those hands that are so comforting...
Thanks to God for the voice so soothing, humming me lullabies...
Thanks to God for you 'Nay.
Thanks for your love, so unconditional, so pure.
I also want to say SORRY for all the pain I caused you.
There are things that we just dont agree that leads to arguments...
And everytime that happens, I really feel so bad for making you sad...
I really wanted to run to you, hug you, kiss you...
I will always be your baby...
Nothings gonna change that...
But i have to grow...
There are things that I have to do on my own...
And you are still part of those things...
Need not to worry.
I am sorry for not being the perfect son you want me to be...
Im not sure if i really tried but in my heart of hearts you are loved.
I am sorry for insisting to change the tv channel and sayingthe talk show doesnt worth it. Promised myself it will never happen but i cant help it...
I am sorry for putting the headset on and listen to my music alone
only to find out you're playing my old cd's.
Guess you enjoyed us listening to that songs together before...
Sorry for getting mad whenever Im in front of these pc or laptop and ask me to sleep...
Sorry for not wanting to sleep beside you most of the time...
I know Im bad.
Sorry for making you nervous whenever I got sick...
I know i always needed a doctor ever since...
but we all dont want you to worry...
Sorry for telling you a lie that I need to stay in the hospital for the checkup
only to see me unconcious the following day...
Ate told me that you were very nervous, the same time the operation was held,
even without knowing it was actually taking place...
God knows, i want to feel your hands during that time but i dont want you to see me ill...
Im calling your name... but i dont know if you can handle it.
I know you cried river of tears, cause when i opened my eyes,
you close yours for a moment and ask me very bravely how i was.
Thank you, finally you're there, i felt safe.
Sorry cause I have to wear the bondage around my head.
Sorry cause you have to see blood coming from my right ear...
Sorry for not taking good care of myself, the one that you treated like a delicate flower.
You are our nanay.
You cry first even before our very fisrt tear when we're in pain.
You are the proud one whenever we achieved something.
You are our emotions.
You are our songs.
You are our light.
Just dont think we dont see you...
I have lots of plans for you and tatay and of course my ate's...
I just couldnt say it cause I might mislead you...
I dont know if i can make it...
all i know is that i want you to see everything
......all the beauty life can bring.
whatever happens...
I will always be your baby...
You will always be loved by tatay, ate dessie, ate debbie, ate dexxie and me,
also by those people who you learn to love
and by those kids who treated you as their real grandmother.
You are the best!
And if God allows us to go back here on earth when our time passes,
I will search the world to see you, i will give you and bring you all the things you loved,
i will bring you tatay, so you will bear your three girls
and after that i will insist to God to make me be your fourth baby.
In that,
WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE EACH OTHER.
WE WILL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER.
