Posted 02/07/08 - "When I Say PAKSHET - Evaporate!!!"

When I say pakshet...
that means pakshet ka talaga!!!

When I say I need a break!
that means I need a lil' time for myself...
When I say I need that goddamn break!
that means I need the whole day for myself...
When I say I need a break, pakshet ka!!!
that means I need you to break into pieces... then evaporate!!!

When I say go to hell!
better be silent.
When I say go to hells hell!
better be running.
When I say go to hells hell, pakshet ka!!!
better be invisible...

Kasi feeling ko I have this gun...
isang kalabit lang
sabog ka na...
pakshet ka!!!

Posted 01/31/08 - "January... Taxes and Tolls"

2 hours more and January is over...

I am looking at my timesheet and WTF!!!
only four days sa buong January ang wala akong time in/out...

Hell!!!
Im working like a horse... (but I bet, I don't look like one!!! hahahaha!)
Im working as if I have two families...
Im working as if Anne Curtis is my girlfriend...

Hayyyy buhayyy!!!

I have two magazines for January pero isang article pa lang yata yung nabasa ko, ung isa nakaplastic pa...

Ung nareceive kong book nung christmas hanggang ngayon di ko pa tapos!!!
Namffff talaga!

This is physically taxing...
Its like a toll that i just can't ignore...
(wow! ano daw???) 

honestly....
this is the worst January ever...

Haven't watched my favorite TV program...
I wasn't able to be part of the planning for my sister's wedding...
I just watched the videos of my nephews and nieces dancing...
Boy! namiss ko talaga un...

I missed high school friends night out sa tiendesitas...
I missed college friends despedida parties...
I missed PTC batchmates lunch-outs...

I missed lying in the sofa with MP3 on...
I missed having breakfast, lunch, dinner with them...
I missed running after my nephew...

I missed sensible chitchats with my 'kababata"...
I missed long naughty(flirty) conversations on the phone...
I missed them a lot...

I missed everybody...

Reposted 01/25/08 - "LEKs SONG"

Lost in the middle of the darkness
Everything seems so strange
Knees do nothing but tremble
Light cannot make a change
Exchanging my cards to gamble
Killing my thoughts away
Love Expects so many Kisses
When will you be on my way.

Living this lonely hour
Enchanted fairy tales
Keepsakes from my every dream
Loving from midnight till four
Earnest to have something real
Knocking to have some more
Love Expects so many Kisses
Please don't make me wait anymore.

Laughter can cure me once
Evanescent like our times
Knowing you are the one
Love that I can only dream
Eternity pour like rain
Killing me gently to be reborn
Love Expects so many Kisses
With a very special Love I'll be blown.

Love Expects so many Kisses
Love Embraces someone to Keep
Love sometimes Ends with Kisses
Love sometimes Ends with a Kiss

Listening to the sound
Embracing the melody
Keeping the keys around
Love's gonna dance with me
Expecting you will be found
Kissing a fool like me.

Posted 1/16/08 - "Funny Feeling"

meron akong crush... pero di ko sasabihin...

yeah!!! Sercret to... ayaw ko talaga may makaalam...

right then and there nung first time ko makita... I admire her na... whahehhehe

ayaw ko pa rin sabihin kung sino... kakahiya...

very suggested girl kasi sya... thats what i think...

in demand ika nga... or there are other things that I just can't figure out...

league? yeah! im so out of her league... maybe thats one...

life is so full of surprises...

always making me wonder how was that? how it would be?

never kong naisip that i'll have this funny feeling...

unexpected, really unexpected... i'm not saying I've fallen...

ewan! i just like this funny feeling... imagining right this very minute... blogging about it...

vulnerable? i might be.. but i wont mind...

akin lang naman to... no one will care... and it will pass... like it always does...

Posted 01/16/2008 - "Is This What You Call Karma?"

Last week, Jan 8, tuesday morning sa mrt merong two guys around my age ang nakangiti sakin...
syempre di ko pinansin...
pag tingin ko ulit... kumaway ung isa sabay "Hi! Alexis!!! musta na?"...
nakatingin lang ako sa kanya... trying to remember who he is...
medyo familiar din kasi...
nagsmile lang ako...
biglang pinakilala ako dun sa kasama...
"Si alexis nga pala, classmate ko nung elementary!"
I was surprised dahil feeling ko kakilala ko or natatandaan ko pa almost everybody, ung mga classmate ko nung elementary, kahit nga ibang section, binabati ko pag nagkakasalubong kami...
nweiz,
I said "Hi!", cguro nga classmate ko sya as he knew my name...
"Oh kamusta na?"
sumagot naman ako...
"Ok lang naman!"

"nakita ko si kristine last week sa may simbahan... may asawa na yata!"
hmmm classmate ko nga yata ito...
I asked kung sinong krsitine, C or R?"
sabi nya si R... 
ok...

sabay kami sa jeep papuntang pasig...
sa jeep...
ako na ung nagsasalita...
hahahahah epal talaga...
then before sya bumaba...
sabi nya...
"Nice meeting you!!!"
pucha!!!
lahat ng tao nakatingin sakin...
badtrip!

then bumulong sya...
by the way ako nga pala yung guy na taga UST na inagawan mo ng upuan sa review center...

errrrr....
naalala ko sya bigla....

kala ko sobrang inis nya at natandaan ang name ko...

un pala... ung souvenir na bag from the company's anniv eh may tag...
andun yung pangalan ko...
naghuhumiyaw!!!  

at sino nga ba ang di nagkaroon ng classmate na pangalan ay kristine/christine?

Drafted 01/07/08 - "S.E.A.S.O.N.S"

I was never alone since birth and I know I will never be.

If there's one thing I feared most was being alone.
I don't know how will I cope with that state of being left in the middle of nowhere.
No familiar faces...
No familiar voices...
No familiar scents...
That must be sad.

Good thing I have my family and my friends.
My family are like my friends and my friends are like my family.
They were there...
All of them...
I thank God for giving me these people...

I saw a picture of me when I was just a year old...
Its my first bithday actually...
My sisters were beside me...
Another picture of me, maybe way back 1983
My Tatay was carrying me...
And there are lots of pictures of me with my Nanay carrying me...
Times that reassured me I will never be alone...

My parents carried me when I was young...
I remember getting sick and they were all awake at the middle of the night...
I'm in pain but I was never alone.

We've been in places but I never remember any instance that I got lost...
I was young and naughty but was never alone...

I graduated in Lil' Angels Pre-School without my parents in the ceremony...
They weren't there but I was never alone...
When we went home after the rights..
They were all there I am definitely not alone...

I started to make friends when I was in grade school,
I had both my knees skinned...
My family weren't there but I was never alone...
My friends picked me up and walk me home...
They left and went home... 
They left me in our house feeling scared of what my parents would say...
They left me shivering but i was never alone.

Posted 01/05/08 - "Shooting Star"

Nung bata ako, nakakita ako ng bulalakaw...
akala ko nga sa likod bahay lang bumagsak...
sabi ng mga kaibigan ko nakita din daw nila...
ewan...
mga bata pa kami nun...
kaya naniwala ako...
pero hanggang ngayon di ko nakakalimutan ang itsura nya...
isang mahabang fireworks...
parang kidlat sa bilis
pero di hamak na mas maganda kesa kidlat...

ganun ako nung bata pa...
laging nakatingin sa mga istarr!
hindi ko alam pero magical ang dating sakin ng istarr...
di ko alam...
pero hanggang ngayon... kahit na explain na sa aming science subject 
na ang mga istar ay in fact mga bolang apoy...
tulad ng araw... pinakamalapit na istar sa atin...
sa akin...
di ko matanggap na yun lang yon...
meron pang iba...
di lang natin kayang iexplain...
something like what mufasa told simba...
and more....

nung bata ako... 
lagi ako humihiga sa tapat ng pinto para makita ko ung mga istar... di kasi kita sa bintana namin... pader ng kapitbahay ang makikita mo nuon...
baliw nga...
papagalitan ako dahil bakit dun ako nahihiga...
hindi ko naman masabi na dahil sa istar....
kaya ayun ok lang!

tuwing bakasyon...
mahilig kami maupo sa bakod...
nakatingala...
naalala ko nga isang beses sa rooftop nila tin...
humiga kami paikot... 
nakatingin sa mga istar...
walang nagsasalita...
star gazing ang drama...

nakakatawa...
nakakatuwa...
di ko man lang natanong kung anong iniisip nila...

iniisip din kaya nila na ang bolang apoy na sobrang layo eh nalulungkot din minsan...
ewan ko...
baliw nga yata ako
pero bakit ganun ang lagi kong naiisip...
parang isang magandang lugar na nakikita mo pero di alam kung pano puntahan....

gusto kong makita ng malapitan ang istar...
masusunog ako...
magliliyab...

pero ang kaluluwa eh magiging masaya...
dahil napuntahan ko ang isang lugar na walang mapa...
walang daan...
puro tanaw lang...

isang lugar na akin...
isang lugar na nagaapoy pero di hell ha!!

imposible...

dahil hindi kailanman maaabot ang istar...

mag iintay na lang ulit ng isang bulalakaw...
may digital camera nako...
baka sakaling mapicturan...
ayaw ko magdownload ng picture o movie...
gusto ko yung akin...
kung pano ko nakita...
at pano ako naniniwala...

nung bata ako...
nakakita ako ng bulalakaw...
promise!!!
nag wish ako...
pero di pa natutupad...
mali yatang daliri ang napagdikit ko...

ngayon...
naghihintay pa rin sa bulalakaw...
sa syuting istar...
pero di na daliri ang gagamitin sabay ng wish...

pipikit na lang...
at hahayaan ang tibok dito sa dibdib ang syang maging hiling....



namfffffffffffffffffffff
lufffffffffffffffffettttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!

Posted 01/04/08 - "January"

Starting Anew...

january... first month of the year...

a perfect timing to have a fresh start...

do i have resolutions?

certainly! kahit na mahirap i-admit, i still have resolutions... i always did...

and i am proud to say that some of those, i was able to succeed it...

its too personal, i cant write it in here.... nweiz who cares???

just want to say,, you too can do it...

January... start of everything...

new plans for the whole year...

like...

this January... i'll start to save courage to have more of her...

February... got to have her for valentines... (wahehhehehe)

March... 1st monthsarry (if theres such a thing), shades of red will come her way...

April... bora? bohol? we'll be hot under the sun...

May.... rainy days might arrive... we'll be dancing on the streets...

June... she will be talking like June and i'll be listening eagerly...

July... will be spending time reading favorite books while holding her hand...

August... We'll be taking our relationship on a different level... i'll show my soul...

September... Playing favorite songs while having dinner...

October... Spending my birthday somewhere far from the city...

November... Experimenting chocolate recipes, it'll be sweet november...

December... Writing to santa to give us forever as a christmas present...

                   or me writing to santa to give the year that i am wishing, wanting, needing...

All these in mind every January...

Hope that Santa will grant me these, this time...

Posted 12/01/07 - "Welcome December"

Welcome December.
Im glad you came...

December perhaps, my favorite month of the year. Yeah, it might be because of bonus, gifts, the weather, the lights, the decor, everything... evertything is perfect... everything is beautiful... on the other end of the world there are snow falling... its a different beauty i guess... its just beautiful... 

Im just right here my December in case you're looking for me...
just in case...

Posted 11/29/07 - "Goodbye Sweet November"

Earlier.

I woke up at 4am, Though its a holiday, I have to work. Thinking this is last day of november... will it be sweet?


Sour.
As per work is concern.


Now.
All is well. 
Few people working.
SAD.
Hoping the rest of the day will be sweet.


Later...
I'll make it sweet....

Posted 11/25/07 - "Sweet November Two"

I cannot remember going back to that gazebo... I never had a dream last night... maybe i did... just like what they say... you cannot remember all the things that happened in your dreams... but i never felt lonely when i woke up... maybe in my dream we are there... maybe in my dream, we are truly happy... maybe... just maybe... and if Im wrong... If the reason why i cant remember going to that place is because the angels doesn't want me to remember the sadness or the pain i might have felt in my dreams... it's ok... i'm ok with it... it is still sweet to me... no one can stop me from dreaming...

It might be my last blog to you November, my sweet november...

I'll make myself busy at work starting tomorrow... hope at night sweet last monday, sweet last tuesday, sweet last wednesday, sweet last thursday and sweet last friday of november be mine.

Posted 11/24/07 - "Sweet November"

This is my first blog entry here in multiply.

Sweet November.

Borrowing the title from the movie starred by Keanu and Charlize. One of my favorite movie. Sweet November... it is indeed the last week of November, five days more and its over. Would the sweetness I am feeling be over soon?

Sweet November...

How does one define the word "Sweet"?

- candies and chocolates, sugar too

- warm cuddles

- words like I love you and take care

what if there's no candies in store for you, what if chocolates are not for you, what if sugar container is out of your reach like when you are younger when you have to step on a chair just to have a spoon of it...

what if there's no one to cuddle you and no one to say i love you and no one takes care of you...

that is not sweet isn't it?

Sweet November.

Still sweet for me, though i havn't tasted it, neither heard it nor felt it for real.

But there in my dreams, you are with me...thanks for my imagination... somehow it gave me a chill... a chill in my heart instead of making it cold, gave it warmth... the warmth that i need... Here in my room, you are mine... can't wait to sleep so i could see you... dancing in the moonlight... in a white nightgown under the flower cladded gazebo... i am there sitting... watching as you move gracefully... you are like an angel. There in my dreams, my heart speaks, your eyes twinkling as if you heard all the things my mouth cannot express... Then you stop moving... you flew... i ran... to follow your path... but your flying higher... the sunlight made me blind... don't know where you are... there are no signs which way you go...

Now, i'll be going back to the gazebo... i'll be waiting... sweet november isn't over...

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