Random thoughts coming.
I just feel like doing this, 1.25AM and not sleepy.
Every morning since Yolanda struck the Philippines, I found myself crying here in the comfort of my blue-and-white-striped room. I've been reading articles online and watching every video there is and while seeing those I can't keep myself together, I always get those tears falling. One reason kung bakit di ako makalabas agad ng kwarto. I am helpless as well, the only thing I thought that I can do was to donate money through the church collection, through redcross, through online donations and even through the company I am currently working. I'm not bragging about it and actually I'm not sure if I should right about it, but that's quite a sum of money. I'm not wealthy and I don't earn that much but I feel like giving my entire month salary to the victims. I know that wouldn't be enough. I still need to do something. I know its going to take a lot to rebuild a city. And I want to say like the rest of every Filipino, I'm also up for the job.
I can't imagine the loss, the grief, the trauma and every little bit of desperation people out there was feeling. Watching the first videos of Yolanda's fury, I feel like 'teka lang, this is familiar.. o right! similar to the apocalyptic movies'. And it was horrific to actually know that that wasn't a movie. That was real life. That is real life. And this is my fellow countrymen. I feel sorry for them, I feel sorry for myself too.
Few weeks back, we were battling those robbers and thieves who took away our hard-earned money. I am pissed off with the politicians who keeps fucking us up. Yung may mga kapal ng mukha na insultuhin pa ang katalinuhan ng mga tao. This is how dirty the politics here. When someone wanted to do things right, the involved officials ALWAYS have something to say to save their asses, insulting the intelligence of the people they are supposed to give their service to, people they should have been protecting but end up being abused by THEM.
Back to Yolanda.
Meron nang mga warnings bago pa dumating si Yolanda. In fact, they've already categorized it as Signal No. 5. Of course, we didn't know how strong it could be, no one experienced it. We had signal No.4 and we always made it after. With a little humps and bumps, we always get through it.
But with Yolanda, I think, di talaga tayo makakapagprepare sa ganitong klase ng kalamadid. Pero and di ko lubos maisip eh dumaan na ang bagyo, the city was flattened. Madami na ang nasira, madami na ang nawala, kasama sa nawala yung mga batang di na maririnig ng mga magulang nila na kumanta o tumawa. Kasama sa nawala yung mga nanay na maggagabay sana sa mga batang magiging mabuting tao. Kasama sa nawala yung mga tatay na matatakbuhan nila at makakapitan sa lahat ng oras. Kasama sa mga nawala yung buong buhay nilang pinagtrabahuhan. Kasama din sa nawala yung mga tambay sa kanto na sila lang yung nakakaalam kung ano ba talaga ang plano sa buhay ng kapwa tambay, di na makikita kung ano ung mga potensyal nila. These are all gone. We have already realized the losses right after Yolanda left the archipelago. But hey, there are still survivors who can tell their stories. These survivors needs every bit of our attention in the fastest way that we can.
Pero nasan na ang mga taong dapat nating takbuhan. Sure there are government officials who acted quickly, but as an individual. We needed the government not just one or two officials. We needed your expertise in handling situations like this. How come you are still talking about for 2 and a half hours how to clear the streets to get into the victims when you should have done that before Yolanda arrive? You should have somehow planned that ahead.
Anyways, I think the same sentiments have already reached these officials. I'm not going to say incompetent if there are other words to describe them. I, personally, despise these politicians and even the effin' broadcasters.
I don't want to talk about them, I am actually shaking right now because of anger.
Looking at the brighter things, I want to thank Yolanda for coming here in the Philippines. Not that I feel like it is okay she passed through our land, I still wish she did not.
But that's the reality now. It happened.
I want to thank Yolanda for bringing the best in every Filipino.
I want to thank Yolanda for letting the Filipino see what the government is capable and not capable of.
I want to thank Yolanda for touching the hearts of every Filipino and lighting it with the desire to rebuild not just the affected region but the entire nation. (So to those some f*ing politicians, you cannot f* us up anymore, you better run for cover cause here we are right behind you, very much ready to return the favor, we will be f*ng you ten times worst than you did us.)
I want to thank Yolanda for getting the attention of all the human being in this planet and made them realize that we are not in the race for power nor the race to be the first in economy, where one must be labeled as champion and the rest are losers. Yolanda made us realize that the only race we are all in is actually the other definition of it - human race.
I want to thank Yolanda for touching the hearts of every nation and letting us all see and witness and feel the wonders of caring and giving and loving, regardless of your citizenship, your ethnicity, your religion and even of your bank accounts.
I want to thank Yolanda for choosing the Philippines to be the place where all nations unite for the common cause. I want to thank you because from this day forward, everyone will speak of our country, how we were devastated, bent down on our knees and how we were able to put back the pieces of what you broke. Every nation and every country who have helped us will take some pride that they too contributes in rebuilding this country. The Philippines will be a great example of how different countries which have different interests and different beliefs laid down their differences for the common goal.
Thank you Yolanda for letting the Filipino learn from other countries and we somehow know now what we should be doing, what bricks to build to secure a stronger nation. Thank you also for showing the world what they can learn from us, you take away our beloved but you cannot take the spirit that we have. In fact, other countries takes in that spirit too. You made it multiply.
And like what Mr. Anderson Cooper have said, knowing our story, they have learned how to live.
Your victims will forever be remembered and their names will be spoken as we stand on our feet.
